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At times, I feel like hiding in my little valley. The world then seems too big and too bad. There is still a child part in me that believes in happy endings, that believes that it is important to be truthful, that it is bad to lie and that lies can’t sustain themselves. That sooner or later the truth must emerge and the house of cards that is built on lies will collapse. But is this realistic or just an innocent boy’s dream?

We can create reality with our thoughts, so they say. I am busy creating with not much happening on a global scale, so it seems. Or is it that changes happen all the time without me noticing. Maybe there is a hidden reality. What is obvious to me is that there are many bad things happening. People stay devastated and innocent people keep dying, murdered through withheld help or through false information. If you do your research with a critical and open mind, there is no doubt about this fact.

We were told that we had to put up with various measures, like shutting down businesses, socially distancing, wearing a face mask to “flatten the curve”. This all was done, the curve of the spread of this apparent deadly virus was flattened yet we didn’t get back to normal, as it was promised. This was the first lie that fed my suspicion.

Another fear scenario was created. Nobody talked about strengthening the immune system. Medication that would lessen the symptoms and possibly heal the disease, was made unavailable and even forbidden. Now, we had to prepare for a second wave – another lie – and wait for a vaccine to solve this world wide health crisis. Was this not the real reason for this health crisis? Were the economic interests of the pharmaceutical industry paramount?

The fact that its effect was soon downgraded as a flu, was conveniently ignored, no relief given. A fear creating pattern was maintained at all cost. Now, the focus was shifted from deaths to cases. Without any excess mortality or dead bodies piling up in the streets, and even hospitals not being overfilled, a questionable test was used and one of the lies told was that you can be infected and be spreading the virus while feeling well. Therefore the test was also done on healthy people. You never knew, you could be a spreader of this deadly disease.

The science is clear by now. More and more well-known scientists, doctors and lawyers have come to the fore and busted the myth that you can infect others while being healthy. Even scientists that were involved in the development of vaccines have broken their silence and spoken out. However, the dictate of the mainstream media does not allow for this truth to be widely known.

“Trust the science” was one of the catch phrases, yet whatever was called “science” that you had to trust was anything but scientific. It was a one sided belief that had been parroted over and over again, without any discussion or exploration of different theories. The conspirators keep building a narrative that becomes more and more intricate and has obviously been well planned. It seems that there are two realities, the truth and the fabricated lies that are widely spread in a huge brainwashing exercise.

These lies around a presumably deadly virus has now been going on for over a year by now, initially fueled by manipulated statistics. When no excess mortality could be proven, the tactic was changed to talking about “cases” that were apparently proven by a questionable test that was applied in a way that it had to come up with “positive” results that really were overwhelmingly “false positives”. In the meantime, everybody talked about a “pandemic” that was created into existence by manufactured data and play-acted scenarios.

To an extend that normal, feeling, sensitive people could not imagine or comprehend, vulnerable people were deliberately killed by prescribing a method that would kill people. Intubation was described as a method to give to sick people in form of ventilators. In fact this method only killed those that were subjected to this method.

I am reminded of the tree that fell in the middle of the forest and that came down with a thumb. When nobody was there to hear the tree fall, did it indeed fall? Did it make an impact, or might as well nothing has happened? Is reality only true when it has been observed? Does the observer give it its meaning? How many observers are needed? When can something be considered true and proven?

The rigidity of the media and governments throughout the world can lead to desperation. I feel with the freedom fighters that try hard to not give up hope for a better future than one in tyranny and overwhelming control, where a minority rules over the majority. The minority that buys the media can dictate their narrative. And if this is the only one that is being told, this then seems true, no matter how false it has been in the first place.

The enthusiasm with which I used to share my findings and passed on information that was not widely available, assuming it must be of interest to the people I thought of, constantly racing time to get it away before it would be censored and disappeared into the dark recesses of the internet. Even the fact that information gets censored, still seems not to wake up people. What happened to the “freedom of speech”?

When the American Frontline Doctors came out and announced their overwhelming positive results with a known and approved medication, in my naivety, I thought that this spook had come to an end, assuming that everybody wanted to find a solution for this “problem” that gripped the whole world. Little did I know that the range of deception was going deeper. Researches were constructed and published in the medical literature to show the dangers of this particular medication. The fact that these were false and had to be retracted was not widely publicized. By now, nobody who was awake could deny that we had been lied to. Maybe it was not about a virus in the first place.

I had taken basic human rights, like the right to voice your opinion, for granted, as I grew up in a western democracy. I am aghast at the fact that this disappears more and more. Only a particular version of reality is allowed. Whatever does not fit this predominant paradigm and narrative gets censored, is either suppressed or punished. Several doctors have lost their jobs, when they chose their conscience over the prescribed interpretation. Priests have been imprisoned for the fact that they held mass for their congregation. Has the world gone mad?

We have been fed statements like, only trust the information that you receive from the government as the “single source of truth”, all else was false and misleading. It is reminiscent of a dictatorship. It also ties in with incessant propaganda. When you hear a certain message over and over again, it edges its way into the subconscious mind. It goes beyond the questioning rational mind. This is how advertising works. It is applied in advertising and also been called marketing, to make it less obvious that in fact it is propaganda.

It becomes embedded into our brains as an unquestionable reality. It becomes a fact that you are not to doubt if you want to belong to the human family. In this way, Covid had become a fact, even though until now, nobody has isolated the virus, that is supposed to be very dangerous and even deadly. No excess mortality has been found. Approved medication that has shown to cure the symptoms have been banned and falsely labelled as dangerous. So much so, that unheard restrictions in personal liberties and freedom have been administered and more or less accepted.

Yet it could be a big hoax, the biggest deception ever.

This is ironic, in our time of maximum information being freely available. So it seems, when you can use the internet and search anything. You don’t have to go to a library to search for information in books that can easily be outdated by the time you do your research. However, you now can no longer trust what you find, when so easily facts can be altered to fit into the predominant narrative that has been decided by a handful of people. Others join in because of the fear that had been created, the need to belong. If you have your own opinion, you are in danger of being denounced as a “conspiracy theorist”.

A questioning mind no longer is encouraged.

The trance that has obviously gripped the world has been compared with the rigid belief structure of a religious sect. Any rationality has been lost. People behave as if they were sheep or zombies, living in a false reality that is removed from any questioning reality. Absolutely no tolerance to even inquire the validity of a constructed paradigm.

Is there a pandemic? Is there a virus? Is there a danger to humanity?

In the absence of any definite proof, the only danger to humanity is the restrictions and with it the loss of basic human rights.

Once I spoke to an acquaintance and had an issue about censoring us and he replied, it was good for people to not be misinformed. Therefore he felt that censorship was justified. The trust in the government should not be undermined. Therefore, there is also an institution of “fact finders”, whose facts are very obviously biased towards the predominant paradigm, that was earlier called “following the party line”, like in a communist country.

Sometimes, I feel desperate about the level of unconsciousness, of so many people being brainwashed and unable to question things that simple don’t make sense to an inquisitive mind. What is the benefit of a “vaccine” that does not stop the spread of the disease, nor does it stop people from getting infected themselves. Maybe it softens the symptoms. However, the symptoms of a cold is the natural cleansing process. Medication that suppresses symptoms are counterproductive to healing, unless they prevent imminent death.

People have been lied to when last year it was widely asserted that things will go back to normal, after we managed to “flatten the curve” or once a vaccine has been developed and most people got vaccinated. Yet, social restrictions don’t end for people who let themselves be vaccinated, which is actually a misnomer. It is not a vaccine in the strict definition of the word, but rather an experimental drug that uses untried gen manipulation in a big medial experiment.

Vaccination doesn’t make sense, since the dangers around this experimental “Vaccine” for outweigh the assumed benefit. Also here is no honest reporting. The fact that thousands of people died soon after receiving this experimental drug, is not widely reported.

Luckily, I still trust in natural methods. What is being propagated is against nature. Manipulating DNA is playing with fire. It is the attempt to play God. When you look at it carefully, we cannot really improve with God’s plan. Everything in nature works well together, if left in peace. Problems arise if we attempt to improve things, like we can see in the case of artificial fertilizers that have contributed to the desertification of vast areas of land everywhere in the world.

In the end, it is a fight between “Good” versus “evil”.

For a long time I did not believe there was any evil, only sick and misguided people. Virginia Satir impressed me with her compassionate statement: “everything a person does makes sense in the context of their life experiences.” This means that every behaviour, as sick as it might be can be explained and understood in the wider context.

What is the truth? What is really going on behind the veil of deception? What is it that we are not being told? Or what is blatantly obvious but so outrageous that people won’t belief it. Books have been written and the wealthy elite talk about “the Great Reset”. Instead of their agenda of control and suppression of the masses, in the end, I belief, there will be the “Great Awakening”. This becomes more and more inevitable.

However, now I do believe that evil exists. And the child part of me still lives in a fairy tale world, where in the end, the good prevails over evil. Is this realistic? But then, don’t we create our own reality through our thinking. As more and more people wake up and focus their thoughts on a wonderful world where we can all live in peace and personal freedom and sanity, it is bound to come true.

Maybe it’s time to come out of hiding, claiming basic human rights as unalienable rights that are God-given and a matter of fact for all human beings.

25 August 2021


Healthy Marriage

“In the world of existence there is indeed no greater power than the power of love.” (Abdu’l-Baha, Paris Talks, p. 179)

Over the years that we have been working and living together, we have come to realise through intense study, trial and error, and by reflecting on our hardships and crises together what a healthy marriage is. It gives both partners security, support, friendship, companionship, comfort and deep love.

In order to experience these, we need the art of loving, sharing, communicating, cooperating, adjusting and recovering. We need to develop patience and forbearance in response to each others’ imperfections in response to difficult times, crises, and loss, which all relationships have to face.

There are some important points to remember and to practice:

A long term relationship is a commitment that means loyalty and faithfulness to each other all the times. We break the bond of trust when we are unfaithful to each other. Continue the ability to develop trustworthiness. Separation is tragic and painful for all, especially children.

Get to know each other. Take a genuine interest, with the intention to understand each other. Make time to communicate daily. Share honestly what is on your mind and in your heart. Include your deepest thoughts and most vulnerable feelings. When differences arise – as they always do – tell each other how you feel. Look at each other, be willing to listen carefully and patiently, and communicate with tenderness.

Expect to discover each other’s imperfections. After the “romance stage”, where we tend to idealise each other, we will begin to notice what we don’t like about each other and can be disappointed. The danger is that we long to go back to the bliss of the “romance stage” and end the relationship. At this point, our task is to learn to be patient and compassionate with ourselves and each other. A main purpose of intimate relationship is to learn and grow.

Remain courteous towards each other. We can easily lose this in day-to-day living, yet saying “I am sorry”, “I made mistake”, “thank you”, “please’, and “excuse me” increase mutual respect.

When we hurt each other. We need to strive to forgive each other, as anger, hostility and resentment undermine our love. Saying “I was wrong”, “please accept my apology”, does a lot to repair a tear in the fabric of the relationship.

We are all imperfect and searching for perfection in each other can become a problem. Couples often struggle to forgive each other for past wrong-doings. It might help to consider Lesley Hazelton’s quote: “Forgiveness is abandoning all hope of a perfect past.”

Avoid being negative. Nagging, complaining, criticising, demanding, and giving orders create disharmony, tension and grief. Make positive requests, “would you be willing to ….” and learn to consult with each other, “do you think it is a good idea?”

We build each other’s self-esteem and confidence when we encourage and assist each other. Never tear each other down. We are all imperfect and need each other’s support to develop our good qualities.

Express appreciation to increase the positive energy. “Love thrives on appreciation” (Virtues Reflection Cards).

Plan exclusive “together times” of rest, relaxation and fun. Plan at least some kind of recreation each week: walk together in nature, read, sing, cook, garden, swim, talk, meditate, create, do service together, celebrate your love to break routine and create meaning.

Long-term relationships require us to sacrifice some of our independence to establish love and unity. Often that means letting go of being right at all cost, selfish and egotistical. Make space for your partner’s opinion, share the responsibility fairly, be of service to each other.

Make sure you don’t take each other for granted. Take good care of yourself and your physical appearance. We are all sensual beings. Initiate surprises, learn each other’s love language.

Talk about your sexual relationship openly. Find out and communicate about what each other likes. Become aware of and comfortable with your bodies. Remember that being sexual is primarily about giving and receiving.

View each other as equal. Cooperate by considering the other’s viewpoint, however strong you may feel about your own. Become aware of your own assumptions and prejudices of each other. It’s easy to put each other in a box. Make decisions together that feel just and fair for all concerned.

Strong emotional reactions to fear, anger, anxiety and sadness are indicators of the state of your love in your relationship. When they dominate the relationship ask yourselves: how can I bring more love into the relationship.

Practice self-discipline. Learn to be in control of your emotions and desires control you, you lose your freedom. Make sure you are in charge of them.

Learn to see yourself more objectively through the eye of others. They can often see your qualities when you don’t. A prayer to help with this:

“Dear God. Show me the truth about myself, no matter how beautiful it is.” (Robert Holden)

Remember that you have been created with love by God, and will always be loved by him.

Choose a spiritual path that enriches and deepens your love and a strong moral, mutually agreed upon, framework to guide your actions through turbulent times.

Express affection and care for each other to helps establish a home of love, warmth and hospitality.

Mirjam Busch-Jarosewitsch 2015


Deep Hygiene

By now, we all know how important the washing of hands is. There are constant reminders of keeping our hands clean. Nobody can miss this important message. We are almost bombarded with that and as everybody wants to belong to the human family, we all follow this appeal.

Apparently, the whole world goes through a health crisis, and in order to be a responsible citizen, so we are told, we help to prevent the spread of a deadly disease as we wash our hands. All the sudden hand sanitizers have turned up in shops and at places where there is no water. Being naturally minded, I am skeptical of the chemicals they may contain, and prefer fresh water and natural soap instead.

And then there was the slogan, “keep your distance to save lives”. When I still could make sense of the reminder to wash hands, this one was nonsensical to me. As humans, we are social creatures, and social contact, even physical touch is vital for our survival.

To my surprise, most people went with that, kept their distance, saw any other human as a potential carrier of a deadly virus, and voluntary let themselves be locked up at home. No, they did it themselves. When it makes sense to quarantine sick people, it never has happened before that whole populations of healthy people voluntarily went into quarantine. Initially this was something new, quiet roads, less pollution in the air, time for the family or whatever you had not been attended to. If your job was not classified essential, as medical services, food retailer or the erection of 5G towers, you were at home.

I feel very lucky that I live in the country now, in the middle of nature. I have left the city where I probably would find it much harder to stick to the newly imposed rules. Soon this will be over, I thought, as businesses were effected. Who would have an interest in running down the economy? It was called a “pandemic”. Where were the dead bodies lining the streets, as it was the case at previous pandemics in the middle ages?

The fact that it happened world-wide made me suspicious. Where was any intelligent discussion about to pros and cons of shutting down all business and isolating people from each other? Where was any consideration for all the people who had built up their business on many years with hard work, only to see it being ruined by a draconian decision? Nobody talked about the level of anxiety that was raised and kept being high, nor the desperation that led people to suicide? Was this collateral damage that we simply had to accept, like the killing of innocent people in a war who happened to be at a wrong place at the wrong time?

Living on the land, I was not very much effected. Then I rang my ex-wife who now runs a little business in the middle of a German city. I was shocked when I heard her desperation. She was in tears, very obviously frightened for her very existence. In the background I heard her TV running. So I suggested to hear to shut it off. By the frantic tone that came across I could feel that this was only increasing her anxiety.

Also, it was not common to ask questions like, who was going to pay back the money the government handed out to compensate for the loss of business? What was happening to the tourism business, one of the major income sources in New Zealand? Or what does it mean for our country to increase the national debt? Will it hit future generations who have to repay? With compound interests, will it ever be able to be paid back? Or will our country stay enslaved to any international money institutions and stay dependent as are many third world countries?

A huge fear had been created about something, nobody could see. It did not matter that an increasing number of well educated specialists eventually argued that the cost of the lock-down was greater than the danger it was supposed to prevent. Media seemed to thrive on bad news and on keeping the population in suspense. I got the feeling of living in a thriller, with uncertainty how this all will be unfolding. What was coming next?

An Austrian psychiatrist Raphael Bonelli compared what was happening to a mental health condition. He diagnosed widespread obsessive compulsive disorder – the washing of hands -, and paranoid anxiety. He felt the same conditions existed as if we all were in a mental health asylum.

Yet, if you dared to question the predominant paradigm, you were excluded from the human family and labeled “corona denier”, “conspiracy-theorist” or – more recently – “Covidiot”. This happened to quite a few professionals who were shunned. People lost their jobs over this, if they even questioned the predominant narrative. There was simply no second opinion permitted. A situation was created, where only one story-line was allowed. Alternative options were suppressed and never appeared in the mainstream media and eventually also were heavily censored in social media. It became common that I saw an interesting article or video only to discover that it had been erased by the time that I came to watch it. What was there to hide?

When the message came out that told us not to trust any other information about this “health crisis” apart from the official government statements that sounded increasingly alarming, I was reminded of my childhood in post-war Germany. The end of pluralism of open discussion of different opinions reminded me of a totalitarian system. I grew up learning in school about Nazi Germany and later lived in West Berlin, a free city surrounded by totalitarian East Germany. So I was very sensitive. What I have always appreciated in the past in this country was the fact that on TV different statements were made and it was left to the viewer to make his own conclusions. There was no space for that now.

It did not take long, and it became known that the predictions that had been spread widely about overcrowded hospitals were not true. In my naivety, I thought, that soon it must be announced that the scare while initial based on realistic predictions had not lived up to the strong warning signs that were given. I was certain that the fear-mongering that had been going on would soon stop, and that we all could go back to normal. But no, any sign of liberalisation was quelled in its occurrence.

Numbers were massaged and reinterpreted so that the current narrative could be maintained. The Sweden example, where there was no wide-spread lock down, was discarded and the fact that their figures were not much different from any country that went through the draconian closing off was suppressed, numbers were falsified or interpreted in a way that looked much worse than it actually was. We were simply lied to. Whatever was not supposed to be was not going to be, no matter what the actual situation was. At the lack of reliable testing, anybody who was suspected to have caught the “deadly” virus was added to the ever increasing numbers of infected people. The fact that the biggest majority had recovered, as is normal after any flu break-out, was obscured. Until today, they are reaching frightening high figures by cumulative counting. A “new normal” had been reclaimed that we had to get used to.

Eventually, it was admitted that the computer model by the Imperial College in England, that was the basis of such drastic measures, had been wrong. Neil Ferguson, the person responsible for this huge error resigned. Yet still, no admission of any mistakes was made, by any of the scientists or political leaders that were responsible for the chaos and hardship inflicted on so many. Had the lying gone too far to be able to be retracted without a loss of face? Or was there another agenda that had not been revealed?

Soon, it became obvious that the washing of hands was not sufficient. We also needed our brains to be washed. Since the brain is hidden underneath a skull and not so easily accessible, the methods had to be refined to include advanced forms of propaganda or “marketing” as it is called now.

Brainwashing (also known as mind control, menticide, coercive persuasion, thought control, thought reform, and re-education) is the concept that the human mind can be altered or controlled by certain psychological techniques. Brainwashing is said to reduce its subjects’ ability to think critically or independently, to allow the introduction of new, unwanted thoughts and ideas into their minds, as well as to change their attitudes, values and beliefs.

The term “brainwashing” was first used by Edward Hunter in 1950 to describe how the Chinese government appeared to make people cooperate with them. Research into the concept also looked at Nazi Germany, at some criminal cases in the United States, and at the actions of human traffickers. In the 1970s there was considerable scientific and legal debate, as well as media attention, about the possibility of brainwashing being a factor in the conversion of young people to some new religious movements, which were often referred to as cults at the time. The concept of brainwashing is sometimes involved in lawsuits, especially regarding child custody. It can also be a theme in science fiction and in political and corporate culture.” (

While we all wash our hands, the washing of our brains cannot be done by ourselves. No, we don’t have to do it. It is done for us by our “caring” media and politicians in a never previously experienced accord. Everybody seems to agree with the current narrative, since nothing that differs from it is seriously being discussed. People increasingly become like robots. Politicians world-wide remind me of marionettes. There are a few exceptions, like the president of Tanzania or of Belarus. But they disappear silently into obscurity.

Our vulnerability is that we all have a need to belong. The simplest way to belong is to just go along with the widely spread paradigm. You don’t even question any of it. And anybody who does not keep to the assumed consensus is being shunned by the media and by other people. And what is worse, people are encouraged by our prime minister to spy on their neighbours and call a special police line to report them if they breach any of the silly laws, like keeping 2 metres distance, staying only in small groups of random numbers that seem to change with the occasion, or wearing stupid masks, that are more of a health hazard than useful. Serious scientists find they can’t keep the tiny virus contained. Masks obviously have more of a psychological purpose, a sign that you care enough about not infecting others. As it transpired recently, if you are healthy, you can’t even infect another person. If you are sick, it has been a common form of courtesy to not endanger others.

Apparently, telling on other people was not dobbing them in – something that is foreign to New Zealand culture – it was acting in solidarity for the well-being of all. This Orwellian double speak is what we were made to believe, since no opinions that differ from the current paradigm are seriously discussed. They are brushed aside as “unscientific” or “conspiracy theory”, without any arguments or proof, so that there is no need to seriously enter a dialogue or consider a different opinion.

Doublespeak is language that deliberately obscures, disguises, distorts, or reverses the meaning of words. Doublespeak may take the form of euphemisms (e.g. “downsizing” for layoffs and “servicing the target” for bombing), in which case it is primarily meant to make the truth sound more palatable. It may also refer to intentional ambiguity in language or to actual inversions of meaning. In such cases, doublespeak disguises the nature of the truth. Doublespeak is most closely associated with political language. The word is comparable to George Orwell‘s Newspeak and Doublethink as used in his book Nineteen Eighty-Four, though the term Doublespeak does not appear there. ….”

‘What is really important in the world of doublespeak is the ability to lie, whether knowingly or unconsciously, and to get away with it; and the ability to use lies and choose and shape facts selectively, blocking out those that don’t fit an agenda or program.’ (Herman, Edward S. (1992). Beyond Hypocrisy: Decoding the News in an Age of Propaganda : Including A Doublespeak Dictionary for the 1990s. Black Rose Books Ltd.) “ (

“William Lutz (Doublespeak) defines as doublespeak language designed to evade responsibility, make the unpleasant appear pleasant, the unattractive appear attractive, basically it’s language designed to mislead while pretending not to.” (DoubleSpeak – How to lie without lying. 16 August 2019,

It is a form of double speak when we are asked to be suspicious of one another and keep distance as a form of solidarity, and “be on the team of 5 million”.

What struck me was that what we were offered as “truth” was rarely backed up by any scientific data. It was simply called “science based” and we were asked to just believe it, because our government said so. Whereas so many scientists who questioned the predominant story were offering transparency and backed up their claims with real scientific data and revealed their sources. However, you didn’t have to examine those, since you were told that it was wrong and unscientific.

“People believe any lie that is big enough, told often enough and loud enough” (quoted from Nazi Propaganda minister Joseph Goebbels according to Tom Sowell). It looks like the different world leaders have been on a marketing course and all learned their part well, as they more or less in unison announced an invisible script that based their hopes for more relaxed social structures on a vaccine to be soon released that would combat that deadly disease. This is all hear-say, a belief that is not backed by scientific scrutiny. Until today, it has never been proven that some vaccines really work without – sometimes severe – side effects. Often the result of vaccination is worse than the disease it is supposed to prevent. The danger outweighs the benefit.

Each year, thousands of people die of the common flu. Until today, no effective vaccine had been found. Such an undertaking seems impossible, since the millions of possible flu viruses mutate each year and change their appearance. It might be a lucrative prospect for the vaccine producing companies but it is not a sensible measure to improve health.

And then, there had been other “health crises” in the past, like the “Swine flu”, “bird flu” and other respirator condition, that did not live up to their dire predictions. What is different now is that almost all the media are in line. It appears well planned. Can it be that media are all controlled and used for propaganda purpose in disguise of informing? This is almost too bad to be true. Can there be such a vicious attempt to the freedom and well being of people world-wide? I can see the temptation to brush these thoughts off as sheer conspiracy theory. They are simply too unsettling. I would gladly join this if there were not all these inconsistencies. The predicted overcrowding of hospitals of infected people did not happen, not even in places with no draconian measures. There was virtually not much difference between countries that locked down and those that didn’t in terms of fatalities. The media of course did not report on this. Why were the figures interpreted in a way that suited the fear story?

But maybe, it is not about health in the first place. What is the hidden agenda?

Can it be about agenda 21 and 2030 promoted by the United Nations? These agendas are well worded and hide globalists’ ideas of more centralized powers. Is the aim the great reset? In a reset, the destruction of small business is planned and not an unfortunate side effect. Is it about population control? What is there to hide that it cannot be communicated in an open and fair fashion?

There is much going on in the background that we don’t know. Why are we treated like children rather than mature adults through censorship and the obvious lack of transparency? Who has an interest in a strongly biased media?

And then the government rushed laws through parliament – the “COVID 19 Recovery Bill” that would bring in the military and disregard the citizen’s privacy or could even force medical procedures on to them. No country has gone so far, as our one, where social experiments are common and a prime minister rules who has pledged her allegiance to the UN and WHO.

Luckily, by now, in most places the instructed house arrest has been lifted. Yet, the whole world lives in suspense. Will there be a second wave, as it has been predicted? We live in uncertain times, it seems now, more than ever.

It is difficult to live with this amount of uncertainty. So I understand that people develop beliefs that give them a base to stand on, that provides orientation and safety, a world-view. No wonder then that people tend to cling on to anything the government tells them. It feels unsafe to live in a world with no orientation. Then it is better to insist in absurd directives, even when it reduces personal freedom, .and to believe in a narrative, that does not make any logical sense. Overall it feels more comforting to believe that the government means well and that they honour their task to protect their people, that they do what they are meant to do for the people who elect them.

“A worldview or world-view is the fundamental cognitive orientation of an individual or society encompassing the whole of the individual’s or society’s knowledge and point of view. … Worldviews are often taken to operate at a conscious level, directly accessible to articulation and discussion, as opposed to existing at a deeper, pre-conscious level, such as the idea of “ground” in Gestalt psychology,…” (

A world-view is based on the accumulation of experience and ideas that lead as orientation. It is very fixed. If we hear something that is contrary to our world-view, we experience the tension of “cognitive dissonance” and generally ignore any facts, no matter how well they are proven, not to have to sacrifice the position that gives us a sense of something solid.

“In the field of psychology, cognitive dissonance occurs when a person holds contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values, and is typically experienced as psychological stress when they participate in an action that goes against one or more of them. According to this theory, when two actions or ideas are not psychologically consistent with each other, people do all in their power to change them until they become consistent. The discomfort is triggered by the person’s belief clashing with new information perceived, wherein they try to find a way to resolve the contradiction to reduce their discomfort.

In A Theory of Cognitive Dissonance (1957), Leon Festinger proposed that human beings strive for internal psychological consistency to function mentally in the real world. A person who experiences internal inconsistency tends to become psychologically uncomfortable and is motivated to reduce the cognitive dissonance. They tend to make changes to justify the stressful behavior, either by adding new parts to the cognition causing the psychological dissonance or by avoiding circumstances and contradictory information likely to increase the magnitude of the cognitive dissonance. Coping with the nuances of contradictory ideas or experiences is mentally stressful. It requires energy and effort to sit with those seemingly opposite things that all seem true. Festinger argued that some people would inevitably resolve dissonance by blindly believing whatever they wanted to believe.” (

My problem here is that I simply can’t go with the mainstream story that is being promoted continuously. Even though, this would make life easier, I cannot simply ignore the many obvious inconsistencies. There have been too many lies being told. I can’t get over the question, why is there so much censorship, why is there no open discussion of differing opinions? Why is there only one side being publicly portrait? And why is there so much verbal violence and dismissal of an apparent minority?

As the general level of fear increases on a subtle level, it seems that a stronger polarization between people is happening. This erodes many friendships, divides neighbourhoods, splits families. It even has the potential to move from an innocent disagreement to a full blown conflict. Again, I am reminded of my past. At university, there was a course on prejudice, that examined how a negative opinion, as it was promoted about the Jews in Nazi Germany, could escalate and eventually lead to the mass murder of this group of people.

“Intense conflicts do not materialize out of thin air; they gradually become more intense. But as many people prefer to avoid conflict, they often overlook the first signals, only facing the situation when quite a lot has happened.” (Glasl, F. Confronting Conflict, p. 71)

Glasl describes 9 escalating stages of conflict. The first level is hardening, “the stances taken in the disagreement harden, ‘crystallize’ and clash. The opponents can no longer be completely open towards each other, they develop internal reservations. Communication suffers because each side increasingly sees events as through a filter, i.e. they do not recognize things around them or filter them out; they listen and see only selectively” (Glasl, p. 86).

This can quickly lead to the next level, debate and polemic. “As they cross the threshold to level 2, the opponents cease to listen to each other’s arguments. Being right and presenting one’s own position in a positive light has already become as important as the discussion of facts.” (ibid. p. 87). While at the beginning, there still was the possibility to hear one another, “now the opposing parties go to extremes in polarizing and cementing their stances. Through selective listening the weaknesses and mistakes in the opponents’ arguments are quickly identified and refuted. Thinking, feeling and will slide into extremes, and the extreme positions appear mutually exclusive.” (ibid. p. 88)

When talking no longer helps, as there is no longer the willingness to hear each other, we move into the next level of “actions, not words” where empathy is lost. Here “the conflict parties no longer believe that they can reach and convince each other by words, nor that the differences that exist can be resolved through an exchange of ideas. On the contrary – they only irritate each other more by talking!” (ibid. p.89)

Next, people develop stereotypical images. “Parties manoeuvre each other into negative roles and fight these roles” (ibid. p. 104) and “each conflict party creates a positive image of its own side, a negative one of the other side” (ibid. p. 93) and look for support from others, at the stage 4, images and coalitions.

This stage, I believe, has been reached in many instances. Here stereotypical terms are being used to insult each other, like “corona denier”, “covidiots” or “conspiracy theorist” on one hand, and being called “gullible”, “asleep” or “brainwashed” on the other.

The escalation of conflict does not stop there, as we have seen in historic events. It moves over 5 more stages from”loss of face” to “strategies of threat”, “limited destructive blows”, “fragmentation of the enemy” to finally “together into the abyss”, where there is no way back from the “destruction of the enemy even at the place of self destruction” (ibid. p. 105).

You might call me now a conspiracy theorist. And I could call you gullible, see you as one of the many people in trance who believe a narrative that may be reinforced by the media and ruthless politicians repeatedly, but does not hold true at closer examination. The predominant narrative is riddled with inconsistencies and contradictions. More and more scientists come to the fore and risk negative consequences and question the predominant theory. A group of front-line doctors recently shared their clinical experience of how a particular approved medication (HQC) would heal infected people, when used at the early stage, and even make a difference when their health condition were compromised.

How come that this news are not celebrated? Why does it need to be suppressed, the video censored, banned from the platforms of social media after it had been blatantly been ignored by mainstream media? Why are the practitioners, who were brave and risked their career, denounced for sharing their clinical observations? Why are they not being acknowledged as the heroes they are? The fact that a “scientific study” that apparently showed how dangerous this particular drug was had been retracted when proven to be false was withheld from the wider public. It simply couldn’t be true what didn’t fit the plan. For me, these inconsistencies are blatantly clear, and I find it difficult to understand that people won’t see that. But then, of course, this would cause a conflict with their worldview.

It is inconceivable for me that all the media people join in deceiving and misleading the wider public. This only makes sense when I learn that the majority of media are controlled by a handful of people that obviously agree with the overall plan. But why do so many journalists go along with it? I can only assume that they are frightened themselves as they distribute fear stories. People are terrified of losing their jobs and with it their material source of existence.

I am very alarmed about the prejudice being propagated with dismissive comments that lead to the exclusion of society for anyone who doesn’t go along with the predominant paradigm. History shows that what starts quite innocently can become the basis of mass murder, as it happened in Nazi Germany or Maoist China.

What effects me personally most is to loss of belonging. I simply can’t belief what doesn’t feel right, and with this I seem to forgo my right to exist as part of the human family that gladly wears masks, keeps social distance and is afraid of one another. Luckily, there are more and more people getting skeptical of the current public narrative and question it.

Especially in Germany, medical doctors have joined forces and formed groups that inform the wider public. They join a public movement, called “Querdenken” (thinking outside the box) that organizes public events and demonstrations. Lawyers follow, then teachers, journalists, and even police officers. Therefore I feel confident that this ground swell will take on momentum and eventually won’t be able to be stopped, despite all the smear campaigns, deliberate set-ups and lies being told in the media.

By now, I inform myself through social media rather than the conventional ones. Of course, not everything that is being said is true, neither with the public media, not the alternative media. If I hear the same information from different sources, it has more credibility for me. I learn to trust my gut feeling. And I like to focus on what gives me a good feeling and hope, on news that lift me up rather than scare me. Some informations are short-lived and are quickly censored. If something is being censored nowadays, it means that it contains some truth that is uncomfortable for the current powers and makes it therefore more interesting. Slowly, new platforms are being developed to reduce the control of certain media.

There is even a party now in New Zealand that developed from a people movement. Now I know what to vote for at the upcoming elections. This gives me a sense that am not on my own, and more and more people don’t swallow what they have been spoon fed. Many valid questions are now being asked. Who owns the media? In whose interest is it to keep people in suspense, afraid of one another, scared of another outbreak? Who benefits from it? What justifies cruelty of ruling that people can’t engage in normal interactions, like grieving together at a funeral or visiting a dying relative? Are you sure that their reasoning is based on real facts instead of made-up constructs?

The country that I loved when I first arrived here 37 years ago, no longer seems to exist. Back then, I noticed that basic humanness was more important than rules and regulations. The love and care for people was very much felt and experienced. Now, seeds of division and suspicion have pulled groups and families apart. People are placed into camps so you don’t have to engage with them. You can simply be written off as a “conspiracy theorist”, then no further investigation of your thoughts are necessary. You are being put into a box.

The shattering of a world view is very disorienting. This is the price I pay for staying open to learning. It feels like the bottom has been pulled from underneath my feet, as over the last 8 months big changes inside of me have happened. Yet, worse than being lied to from others would be to lie to myself.

I was a supporter or our young prime minister and thought that her intentions were good ones, for the well-being of the people. This I no longer can believe. Different to the trust in its citizen as it has been exercised in Sweden, here we are in danger of turning into a police state, where strict measures had to be taken to quell any resistance that is obviously being anticipated. I wished she would have been open to real expert advice or simply used more common sense. Why else do we need such a high level of control? Why do we need the possibility of martial laws to be implemented? The less trust there is the more control is being needed. Sweden was such a good example of a country where the leadership trusted its people. In turn, as I don’t feel trusted, I am suspicious of leaders who don’t trust. What are their hidden agendas?

Why was there a need to introduce a new liberal abortion law in a hurry to rush it through parliament in the first week of lock-down without any public consultation? Why have 5G capable towers been erected during lock-down? Why is there no scientific testing sought to establish their safety? Why is there no wide-spread public consultation?

My trust in any mainstream media has completely eroded. When it is obvious that they tell us lies to manipulate us, you can easily lose your trust in any accuracy of information. Instead of being informed, I am now convinced, we are being manipulated, and because of the incessant repetition, brainwashed.

I am finding my new orientation and notice that I am not on my own. I feel close to critical thinkers, who smell a rat and have the courage to speak out, while often risking their career. This gives me a sense of sanity. I have developed the habit to observe what people actually do, not so much what they say. Often the opposite is true. I have moved through a radical transformation and no longer see myself as left leaning or as green. Have they not recently undermined personal freedom? Instead, I appreciate good old values, like living in a democracy, with pluralism and the sanctity of personal freedom.

It feels like making mental somersaults, as I revise my word-view. As it is said in the “Course in Miracles”, there are two forces, the light and the dark, love or fear. One is life enhancing, the other is life-diminishing. One is unifying, the other divisive. I definitely choose life and freedom over control and the narrowing with control and anxiety.

My orientation at the moment is the question, “is it in line with nature and life enhancing?” Or ask the question that a friend once proposed, “what would love say to this?” My task is to stay in a loving space, despite my frustration and experienced hostility. If I want a better world where there is love and life valued, I need to live into that ideal.

I was heartened by a huge demonstration for freedom that took place two months ago in Berlin. The huge crowd focused on peace and love and lived into that, even when the police called the demonstration off before any of the speakers could say anything. People stood in silence for a minute, hand on their heart, before they peacefully disbanded. This sent a stronger message than if there would have been violence.

To want to eradicate a virus that is considered dangerous and is being transmitted through the air is an undertaking that we are prone to fail and are not going to ever achieve, according to professor Dolores Cahill. We need to find a way to live with viruses, they are part of life – some are useful and even necessary for life, like the bacteria in our guts. We need to arrange ourselves with them and find a way of coexistence. In a similar line, we need to learn to live with difference and not try to eradicate people with different opinions. In a democracy, we can trust that in a robust exchange of ideas we can move closer to the truth. No one can own the truth. We all have a part of it and when we share our individual truths, we move closer to the truth of the matter. It is like the parable of the 5 blind men describing an elephant. Each one of them describes it differently, depending on their position.

The task of our times, as Baha’u’llah puts it, is to learn to live with “unity in diversity”. As part of humanity, we are all unified. Diversity then is something that we should not be afraid of but nurture as the source of our unity.

Rudolf Jarosewitsch

1 October 2020


The Challenge of Loving What Is

Loving What is

There are days, where it feels normal, to love what is. My energy is high, my mood is good, life simply seems wonderful. Everything is going my way. I feel elated, happy and content. My “loving what is” seems the result of my current situation. I am having “a good time”.

Do I love what is as a consequence of life being good? Is loving the result of good things happening in my life? It is like the sun has risen and bathes my world in a glow of brilliant light. It is simply the fact that I love feeling good. Neuroscience teaches us that certain hormones in the body are responsible for our feeling of elation, of zest for life, of positivity. These are the”happy hormones”1.

Or is it that life is good because I am in a state of loving life? Is my inner attitude of being in a loving space responsible for how I feel, and for how things work out for me? Maybe, I am simply in flow with whatever occurs in my life, with the circumstances that surround me. Then “loving what is” is an attitude to take if I want happiness in my life. This follows the principle of resonance. It is a way to create a sense of well-being, of happiness and contentment. If this is true then my feeling should not depend on whatever happens in life.

The question arises: To what degree am I the creator of my life? What is it in my life’s circumstances that I am responsible for and what is it that is outside of my will, outside of my control? How much can I “manifest” in my life?

Maybe, “loving what is” is both, the result of what happens in my life, and what I make of it. It is a useful attitude to take. Maybe it is the secrete to a positive life, to positive things happening to me.

As I think back over my life, I can recall moments of sheer bliss, of joy, of happiness, feeling content with myself and my life. My life force is high, I have lots of energy for living, life simply is wonderful.

Many years ago, I went to the movies and saw a film with the title “Life is Beautiful”2. To my surprise, it was not a movie that took place on a palm fringed tropical island, where everything grows abundantly, a place that we would call “heaven on earth”. It played in a most unlikely place of being considered beautiful. The scene was a concentration camp in World War II with prisoners and heavily armed guards.

Yet, this was not a very heavy movie. It was a sort of a comedy, shedding light into a dark place. I recall being uplifted and feeling hopeful about the resilience of the human spirit, when I saw how the main actor turned a sheer unbearable situation creatively into play for his young son. He made life to be beautiful in the most dreadful circumstances.

The year that the movie was made, 1997, was the year when Mirjam and I joined and formed a “conscious relationship” that lasted for 20 years and culminated in us getting married. Other highlights were working together, travelling the world, mainly in Asia, Australia and the Pacific, and finding a special place in a beautiful area of the Coromandel where we eventually moved to.

This uplifting time became something, I almost took for granted. I got used to having found “my soul mate”. The focus shifted more and more to mundane matters. There was a house to be built, a compost toilet and outdoor shower, a garden to be created in an area where possums are abundant. Slowly but steadily, it became harder to love what is. Life was full of ups and downs. There was the excitement of living in a beautiful environment combined with everyday worries. Eventually, the wonderful time came to an abrupt stop when Mirjam fell ill to cancer and subsequently died within a year. A beautiful time in my life had been tempered by normality and was then followed by despair.

Now, the idea of “loving what is” all the sudden is much more challenging. Can I love what is in difficult situations as well as in easy, positive situations? Can I love what is in neutral situations, rather than taking things for granted? Love it, not just to put up with it. Can I manage to love what is no matter what happens on the outside? This would mean to create an inner space of love inside of me that includes me and all around me, the trades people I am dealing with, as well as difficult neighbours, and the possums and the snails in the garden. Can I love the occasional mosquito and the sandflies? Can I love the rain as well as the sunshine?

As a consequence of losing my wife, my natural reaction was to disengage, to distract myself, so that I would not constantly feel the pain of the loss. I learned to close my heart, to cut myself off. This is typical for what has been called the first stage of the grieving process, the phase of denial and isolation:

“The first reaction to learning about the terminal illness, loss, or death of a cherished loved one is to deny the reality of the situation. “This isn’t happening, this can’t be happening,” people often think. It is a normal reaction to rationalize our overwhelming emotions.

Denial is a common defense mechanism that buffers the immediate shock of the loss, numbing us to our emotions. We block out the words and hide from the facts. We start to believe that life is meaningless, and nothing is of any value any longer. For most people experiencing grief, this stage is a temporary response that carries us through the first wave of pain.”3

To my surprise, the times of denial kept coming back. Whenever I think of my earlier life, I can go back into an unreality quite easily. It happens each time when I argue with reality and wished it was different, each time when I don’t accept what has happened. It is reassuring to know that this is a normal process of grieving. Grieving doesn’t happen in a straight line going from stage to stage in a linear fashion. It is messy.

In between, there were lighter moments that lifted my spirit. I felt a hunger for positivity in my life and was drawn to “positive” people, to people who would help lift my spirit. What soon became clear was that what they had in common was that they did not argue with reality, they befriended their reality, they looked for the positive in any situation and found a way of loving what is.

I rediscovered Byron Katie who wrote a book to the same title4. Her method, what she calls the work5 is focused on inquiry. Is it true what I tell myself? This inquiry is a way to find out that my suffering is not the result of what happens but of what I make it mean.

“This simple, yet powerful practice describes: “As we do The Work, not only do we remain alert to our stressful thoughts—the ones that cause all the anger, sadness, and frustration in your world—but we question them, and through that questioning the thoughts lose their power over us. Great spiritual texts describe the what—what it means to be free. The Work is the how. It shows you exactly how to identify and question any thought that would keep you from that freedom.”6

Therefore it becomes an inner experience, something that I actually have power over, something that is within “my circle of influence”7.

What is necessary for this empowerment process is the willingness to feel the uncomfortable feeling, to feel the pain, and experience its true and temporary nature. Important here is awareness to the present moment, a key aspect of Gestalt Therapy. As I become aware of how my thoughts contribute to my current situation, I gain more control of my life. I move from being a victim to being a creator. I might not have any control of what happens, but it is in my hands how I think about it.

Yet, this is not such a straight forward process, as it sounds. Even though, there is no benefit in fighting the fact, it is understandable when I do this. I give up living in the world and distract myself when it hurts too much. I close my heart and shut more or less down emotionally and try not to feel anything. When feeling is painful, I rather deaden myself. This is a quality that in particular men learn during their socialization, the way of denial, that could cost me my engagement with the world.

“When you argue with reality, you lose, but only 100% of the time.”8 This sounds very logic and offers an invitation to surrender to living my life and to the process of living.

In situations where “loving what is” is not easy, I have mainly three options. One is to resign. There seems nothing can be done, as I capitulate. In resignation, I put my head in the sand. I don’t want to see. I feel like a victim of circumstances that I cannot control. What I notice is that my life energy contracts. I feel less alive. I can join the circle of complainers and moaners. I am the victim of the circumstances, that are beyond my control. Denial is a form of resignation. I am stuck, thinking about the past, of what should have been, wishing for things to be different. I live in a fantasy world, having left a tangible reality. I enter a mental construct that removes me from the present situation of the here-and-now. In denial, I numb myself and succeed to not feel, until my sedation wears off. This is a temporary relief.

I could also fight reality, “it shouldn’t be that way”, get angry with Mirjam for dying, with the possums for eating the fruit and breaking branches off. I could declare war, set up traps and poison them. I could even hate them, buy a gun and learn to shoot them. This is the fighting option. Usually, as I succeed in defeating a possum, trapping, poisoning or shooting it, I will most likely have a brief moment of relief. But this won’t last. There are far too many possums or snails to ever get on top of them. Fighting what is gives temporary relief.

The only constructive option is to align myself with reality. “Loving what is”. It is living with trust, that what happens needs to happen, exactly the way that it needs to. This is a process of surrender to the inevitable, to the “Will of God”. A saying comes to mind, “der Mensch denkt und Gott lenkt”. The equivalent in English is: “The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.”9

Surrender is different from resignation.10 Resignation is a “giving up” and comes from a place of hopelessness, whereas surrender is filled with trust and confidence. It is based on trust in God, or in the universe. Trust that what needs to happen happens, and that what happens is the right thing to happen. Otherwise, it would not happen.

Say, for example, I want to skydive. First, I prepare well and make sure that there is a working parachute attached to me. Eventually, the moment comes when I have done all the preparation that I could do, and it is time for me to jump. This is a moment of surrender. Once I step out of the plane, I let go of my control. Actually, in this case I have no other option.

Life gets difficult, as soon as I get attached to a particular outcome. This is the source of suffering, according to the Buddhist teachings, as described in The Four Noble Truths.

“According to Buddhism, suffering arises from attachment to desires. These desires can vary from material objects, sensual pleasures or even your relationships. The reason desiring causes suffering is because attachments are transient and loss is inevitable.

Buddhism says that the only constant in the universe is change, and by desiring you are trying to control and make something fixed. Suffering will follow because you are going against the forces of the universe, which is what causes anxiety, depression and negative emotions.”11

In the end, change is the only constant there is in my life. After a period of extensive sunshine that caused dryness, I noticed that I looked forward to rain for the gardens to thrive. When it is hot, I look for shade and enjoy the coolness of the stream. But then, after extensive periods of rain and the ground being soaked, I begin to crave sunshine again.

A recepie for a life in misery is to always want the opposite of what is. When it is warm, you want cold, when it is cold, you want warmth, etc. If you want happiness you learn to accept and love what is.

It is easier said than done, and to put it into practice is one of the great challenges in life. What helps me is to know that in the darkest moment, there is a source of light. If I can find it depends on my attitude.

The big rain has stopped. Bright sunshine invites me to go outside and to face yet another beautiful day.


2Life Is Beautiful (Italian: La vitabe è bella, Italian pronunciation: [la ˈviːta ˌɛ bˈbɛlla]) is a 1997 Italian comedy-drama film directed by and starring Roberto Benigni, who co-wrote the film with Vincenzo Cerami. Benigni plays Guido Orefice, a Jewish Italian bookshop owner, who employs his fertile imagination to shield his son from the horrors of internment in a Nazi concentration camp. …

The film was a critical and financial success. It grossed over $229 million worldwide, becoming one of the highest-grossing non-English movies of all time,[4] and received widespread acclaim (despite some criticisms of using the subject matter for comedic purposes). It won the Grand Prix at the 1998 Cannes Film Festival, nine David di Donatello Awards, including Best Film, and five Nastro d’Argento Awards in Italy, two European Film Awards, and three Academy Awards, including Best Foreign Language Film and Best Actor for Benigni.

4Byron Katie, Loving What Is: Four Questions That Can Change Your Life


7Stephen Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People.

10See: John Kehoe, The difference between surrender and resignation,



Loving what is

– The Power of Gentleness

A Gestalt Approach

Friday 15 November – 6 to 8pm and

Saturday 16 November 10am to 5pm

How do we deal with challenging situations in our lives?

Do we force ourselves and others in an attempt to bring about change?

Or .. Can we learn to surrender to a given situation and go with the flow?

We live is such a fast-paced world that we can lose sense of the present moment. Often we go through the motions or use distractions to NOT be with our experience. We end up feeling ungrounded and low on energy, disconnected and lonely.

So … how do we find the way back to our well- being?

By slowing down, we can gain awareness and, by staying with ‘what is’, we can reach inner peace and total acceptance of the given situation that leads to change in a natural way. This process forms the baseline for a choiceful, responsive and empowered living.


Rudolf Jarosewitsch and Sophie Toutain will be co-facilitating this workshop.

Rudolf Jarosewitsch, M.Ed. (FU Berlin), Gestalt Therapist (GANZ), Counsellor (NZAC), Supervisor and Trainer (Integrative Gestalt Centre, guest trainer at numerous Australian Gestalt institutes). Rudolf now lives in the solitude of the New Zealand bush in the Coromandel and works mainly through internet media.

Sophie Toutain, Dip Gestalt Psychotherapy, MNZAP, PBANZ, GANZ – Registered Psychotherapist. Sophie is currently in private practice at Now Psychotherapy and Counselling in central Christchurch. She works with adults individuals and couples Sophie is also seeing adult men and couples at the Canterbury Men’s Centre

Venue: Otākaro Healing Arts – 232 Fitzgerald Avenue – Christchurch Central

Cost: Early bird $135 (by 8 November) – Full fee $160

For more information and to register, please contact Rudolf Jarosewitsch at or Sophie Toutain at

No prior experience of Gestalt therapy required


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2 September 2017

My heart goes out to all the men who have lost the love of their life, who grieve for their closest friend and companion, for their wife and their lover. It is very tough, and probably the deepest stress imaginable. Words can’t describe the agony and pain.

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Mirjam, my wife and lover. There will always be a special place in my heart for you. I mourn your loss and celebrate our eternal connection that extends beyond this physical life.

Kaye Ryan Bless you Rudolph; so beautiful that you can share your compassion for others so early in your process 

Christina Burki I am sure that your connection is still there..very strong.

Jax Storey Rudolf I could put a ‘like ‘ and a ‘heart’ here. But neither portray the right sentiment. In reality I wouldn’t have a clue of what you are experiencing. So in innocence I send you an all enveloping cuddle and endless kisses on your cheeks…knowing they are not from the one you’d love to receive them …

Paul Tottle Eternal love

Lawrence O Aotearoa (( ❤ )) your beloved’s pain has ended dear brother I hope you can find mercy for yourself as you grieve (( ❤ ))
with love and support for your process x

Ian Jones Yep

Cheri Anderson Your love will be with you always.

Karen Humpage Your loss is a pain I cannot fathom…your love for Mirjam is something I understand completely. I know if she had to do it all over again she would choose you Rudolf as I know you would choose her. Your spirits are joined and shall be forever. I belief grief is the hardest thing humans go through. Continue to reach out and express your pain and love. We all shall accompany you on this journey you must travel. Mirjam is with you as are we. {{Hugs}} and love to you my friend   

Olli Ricken ❤️

Warren Parkinson You are in our thoughts daily Rudolf and our love goes out to you at this difficult time.

Clive Holgate Just listening

Flavia Coleman Love never dies

Margarete Koenning Lieber Rudolf see fest gehalten in deinem Schmerz und deiner Trauer

Gary Cook Love and Blessings . We never forget those that we truly love. Arohanui

Alan Wilcox I am so sorry to hear this sad news of the passing o dear Miriam. A huge shock love and prayers Rudolf.

Dennis Valentine Rudolf …
What beautiful messages yr grief and pain are telling you about the depth of your love I am moved to tears of joy for the depth of love you shared and expressed for each other….. if that makes sense..
.. such a beautiful beautiful thing

Lucy Cabot-Saunders Much love to you Rudolf xo

Peter Jackson Lovely photo Rudolf, Lovely memories

Richard Stewart Thank you Rudolf. I was so sad to learn of Miriam’s death. Kia kaha and much love and strength to you.

I never knew that grieving could hurt so much. I feel a dull pressure in my chest. Mirjam, my love, I miss you so much!

Elizabeth McCardell Yes, grief hurts to the core of one’s being.

Jazelle Alderdice Nothing can prepare you Rudolf! Feeling for you…..

Petra Zirke lots of love to you Rudolf from me and some other members of the chigung community.

Shirley Hurrell Only those of us who have experienced that level of grief, understand …..

Eleanor Pinkerton Yes the pain is very real. Sending healing chi your way!

Monica Page Like waves in the ocean…the physical missingness will come and go. Gradually as you adjust, you will remember she is right next to you. You are loved by so many Rudolf Jarosewitsch all holding your hand.

Christopher Musgrave Amen
Lots of love to you 

Estelle Nguyễn We miss her too…

Jillie Toogood Love to you Rudolph. Beautiful photo.

Dix Ozier Standing with you, my friend

Mari Trini Mitre I’m so sorry Rudolf… My heart is still aching too.   Much love and harmony.

Christina Burki Love to you Rudolf.I only can imagine and know she is still close to you..invisible.

Erica Ruiter Big permanent hug.
The pain is understandable for the life lost.
The challenge is in time time time realising there is no separation.

Warren Parkinson Kia kaha Rudolf.

Erica Ruiter Love the photo.x

Diane Boyd Its a pain like no other!

Nilguen Kulpe Yes, it’s an enormous pain to loose your beloved through death and unimaginable that ‘ this too will pass one day…’ my heart is with yours Rudolf, love Nilguen

Lynda Kitchingham Rudolf. My heart aches every time I think of you. I’m so sorry you’ve lost that fabulous woman Mirjam!

Margarete Koenning Lieber Rudolf ich denke view andich halte rich Liebevoll in deiner Trauer

Kovido Maddick Thinking of you Rudolf . All our love Kovido and Suraya

Tess Ward Beautiful photo Rudolf. Jan and I are still thinking of you having just driven away from your place a few hours ago. Kia Kaha. Love Tess and Jan x

Jen Raquel Newick I think of you daily Rudolf. Im holding you in my heart place 

Wolfgang Fassbinder big hugs to you Rudolf 

Rebecca Lee Sending you love in this space of deep grief Rudolf 

Alison Cannell Sending love Rudolf❤️xx

Annekatrien Verbraak So sorry you have to go through such a pain. Very brave of you to share it and reach out. I see here that it seems that your call is heard. I hope you feel that as slightly soothing your huge grief.

Eden Fazel Feeling your pain. Will travelling for 2-3 months possibly ease this transition?

Monique Dobrzelak I am with you 

Rose Diamond Thinking of you Rudolf, feeling with you, much love to your grieving heart.

Katz Cowley I can’t imagine how you must be feeling Rudolf.
The other side of the blessing of a deep union is the grieving for the loss of your beloved through all the ‘thicks a thins’ of relating.
My heart joins others to be with you and circle around you on your grieving journey.
I know that cant replace what you have lost but we are holding you through this deep transformational passage 

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Thank you. It all helps.

Cynthia Shakti I think grief is one of the hardest feelings to bear, be genle with yourself Rudof and remember to continue to reach out to everything that will nuture abd norish you. Much love, courage and hugs to you xox

Danielle Kojic Such a beautiful photo. Lots of love to you

Cheri Anderson Sending so many comforting hugs 

Ali Watersong Sending you much love and care Rudolf Jarosewitsch

Ali Watersong ❤️❤️❤️

Tamika Gail Dwight-Scott Can’t even begin to imagine your pain Rudolf. Our heart goes out to you. Tam and stu xx

Karen Humpage ❤️ sent you a message Rudolf. Much love to you from Mark and myself ❤️

Janice Joyce I’m thinking of you Rudolph and sending love 

Penny Brenton Sending love Rudolph, great grief is the result of great love! 

Jennifer Teague I love the laughter in her eyes, I know I will always remember that.

Linda Kroening ❤

Harikirtana Heike McCahon Rudi, I am thinking of you and Mirjam often, sending prayers and love xx

Gael Thompson Yes Rudolf. Grief is such deep pain and heartache felt on so many levels , keep reaching out ,sharing your love story and take extra care of your immune system it will be severely compromised at this time .
Holisticpulsingrocks Corinne Murray oh i so remember that smile xox

Sugra Morley My condolences and blessings go with you, Rudolph

Jane Catherine Severn sending love as you continue to bear the unbearable, day by day. xx

Astrid Melchers I’m so sorry Rudolf, so so sorry. Sending you a hug…

Nguyễn Hoàng Thanh I miss her too, Rudolf please take care of yourself.

Roger Harwood REMEMBER ME….
To the living….I am gone.
To the sorrowful….I will never return
But to the happy…I am at peace.
And to the faithful. …I have never left
I cannot speak… but I can listen.
I cannot be seen… but I can be heard.
So as you stand apon a shore, gazing at the beautiful sea… Remember me.
As you look upon a flower and admire it’s simplicity. .. Remember me.
Remember me in your heart, Your thoughts. .. and your memories.
Of the times we loved…the times we cried… the times we laughed.
For if you will always think of me I will never be gone.
Author unknown
Kia kaha my friend

Kaye Ryan Keep sharing dear Rudolf, I will keep holding space for your grief as I am certain many of us intend to. I so wish I could be physically present to sit with you through some of your more difficult moments. May Mother Nature caress your cheek with the softest of breezes to remind you that you are felt, held and loved in your despair xxx

Linda Kavelin-Popov It’s a terrible hollow pressure. Sending love, dear Rudolf.

Marlene Harrison Thinking of you Rudolf and sending you our loving thoughts and prayers.

Augusta Andrew Dear Rudolf, we are thinking of you and send you our love and prayers.

Hi rudolf. I appreciate your open sharing of your feelings. It teaches many. It helps others know where you are at though far away. You are very brave. This grieving is natural and time heals. In the mean time, if you haven’t already… give the grief to god.ask for support to have the chasm filled and ask how to do the next minute. Much love.x Erica Ruiter

Suzy Erskine



Just returned home from Hamilton with my beloved Mirjam’s remains in a small box. It still feels unreal, and my tears stream as I urge her to show up. Mirjam, where are you? I miss your cheeky smile, your quiet presence, your wisdom and beingness. It is slowly sinking in that you have moved on, especially after seeing your cold body. 
Thanks to Sim and to Nadine for organising 2 services, one in Hamilton and one in Christchurch, and thanks to Kira for organising the artistic activity that your mother wanted.
And thanks to all of you for your comments. 
Thanks to Eileen and to Jax for the photos.

Peter Jackson Well Done Rudolf. The prayers will continue ^^ [26 August]

Penny Brenton Heartbreaking 😥🙏🏻

Annekatrien Verbraak Your grief mirrors the great love between you. All the very best, Rudolf

Ina Angova What a dignified and beautiful Goodbuy for this gorgeous Woman! Our prayers are with you Rudolf and Mirjam! 🌷🌷🌷

Jill Baxter It’s so sad Rudolf. Big hugs to you. Know she is near. X

Jane Forsyth Prayers for you Rouldolf a generous soul full of love and wisdom for all. spirit always be with you Guiding You to your future with mirjams spirit by your side .

Karen Humpage ❤ ❤ ❤

Katz Cowley I’m so thinking of you Rudolf.
I can’t imagine how you must be feeling.
Im so happy you two found eachother…
The other side of that joy and depth of love and connection is the grief of letting go.
I can’t imagine how that must feel but I know there is so much to be felt and reality checks as you adjust from feeling Mirjam’s physical presence and sparkling warmth beside you, to feeling her presence in your Heart and around and within you in new ways.
I think of you both so fondly and an touched by the openness of this post and all that you have been sharing in this profoundly deep journey as Mirjam has moved on beyond her physical form.
Nothing can ever break the love and the bond between you.
My loving thoughts and prayers with you ❤

Eileen Khouw Sending big love, l am thinking of you and looking forward to seeing you tomorrow X

Stan van Uden So feeling for you in your grief Rudolf. Sending you both much love. So many beautiful memories of you two and such a heart felt sense of the love between you. Big loving hugs to you, thinking of you so much. Stan.

Monique Dobrzelak I feel you and know how it feels. I pray for you both and wish I could give you a big hug 💕

Simone Hamblett Dear Rudolf. I was remembering the counselling sessions Derek and me had with both of you many years ago when you had just moved into your new house in Brighton. I remember you both enjoying your new garden and admiring the new blossoms on the trees…
With much love and heartfelt thoughts.

Katz Cowley Dont think there were many couples who *didn’t* get some support and counselling from Mirjam & Rudolf in Chch!
My partner and I at the time did too and seemed a common thread between many couples and the well trod pathway to Mirjam & Rudolf’s door for beautiful support through testy terrain ❤ ❤ ❤
Thank you both of you x

Jane Forsyth Saved many marriages

Donald Pettitt Really helped to set Frauke John and I up. We have very strong memories from those sessions.

Jane Catherine Severn so much love to you in these days and nights of sorrow, dear Rudolf… thankyou for letting us share this journey of bearing the unbearable with you. It will be so hard for a long time – do know you are not alone, even when you feel most alone. xxx

Jen Raquel Newick Dear Rudolf, your profound grief is a testement of the immense love that you shared with Mirjam, your soulmate. I hope you find some solice knowing that you will be together again in another realm. Please accept my loving thoughts and prayers. Jen 🙏

Jax Storey Oh Rudolf…it’s absolutely surreal that Mirjam is no longer here in physical form…
I cannot imagine what it’s like for you. No longer is she by your side. No longer do you make choices together nor continue to create your home…
And yet, she’s even more close…
Each time you think of Mirjam she’s closer than your breath. She is in your heart when you really stop and feel it. Mirjam is with you loving you at the deepest most profound level.
All love and blessings to you o tender one, Jax 🙏🏻💗🙏🏻
[27 August]

Kaya Singer Love.

Jan Jaap van Sluijs Dear Rudolf, we feel very sad about your loss. Just one day before Mirjam’s departure from this life, we lost our mother Iek. She was Mirjam’s godmother. This is surely no coincidence and you can be assured that Mirjam has been received with open arms bij my mother. We wish you all the strength you need.

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Thank you for this. What a beautiful picture. My condolences to you.

Fariba Riazati Dear Rudolf it is very painful to lose a loved one but as time goes it gets easier. You will continue to live with her memory. You will never forget but learn to cope with it. I recall when my dad passed away a couple of years ago, he was overseas and I was not able to go to Iran to say goodbye. I still to this day find it hard to bleieve that I wont see him again but life goes on and we live by the fun memory of our loved one. Such is life. stay strong and call her to mind she is closer to you more than before. you are in my prayers.

Nilguen Kulpe Oh, Rudolf I do know how it feels to lose a soul mate and I also know that she’ll be around you in many ways, watch your dreams! My heart goes out to you! I’m staying currently with Olaf and Veronika who are equally shocked and saddened by the news of Mirijam’s death. Many blessings, love Nuegg

Warren Parkinson Thinking of you in your grief Rudolf. Kia kaha our dear friend.

Ian Gall My thoughts are with you my friend

Arielle Atman Totally surreal. Thank you for sharing your love Rudolf x

Tracy Adams Holding you in my heart Rudolf

Olly Ohlson Kia kaha Rudolph from Theraze and I.

Tess Ward Thinking of you Rudolf. Thanks for sharing so openly. Sending you healing thoughts and hoping that the sadness and feelings of loss lessen over time with the support of friends.

Monty Engs We love you Rudolf. Your loss is our loss. Mirjam is the brightest angel in the Abah Kingdom! Prayers and fondest thoughts to you.

Tiamara Williams Dear Rudolf, I am thinking of you. I totally get the feeling of loss that you have. Deep breaths, feeling all the way to the centre. Soft hugs to you.

Kovido Maddick Dear Rudolf your Love and realness move me to tears. Thank you. It has been so hard to believe that it has happened. So sad. My thoughts and love are with you kovido

Kathy L Gilbert Prayers and loving thoughts dear Rudolf. Arohanui

Nasim Anayati Maani You’ve all been in my humble prayers daily, dear Rudolf!

Augusta Andrew Oh my goodness, we only just saw this. Our sincerest condolences, Rudolf. She was a shining spirit in life and returns to that true essence. Sending you much love and hugs.

Jax Storey





rjam Busch

August 26 at 3:12pm · Christchurch · 

Last night we celebrated you, angelic Mirjam
Though you were probably there with us in spirit form, 😇 we, one by one, spoke of you sharing memories and recording your beautiful qualities in a huge heart-shaped helium balloon. I said your heart was even bigger. 🎈
And we each placed flowers 🌺 in the winding path of sand from Penquin Street created as the mandala of your life.
At the end we took the balloon outside, formed a circle, expressed intentions and spoke a prayer from 
Rudolf sent to the beautiful loving organiser – oh dear I don’t recall her name – ( I was blessed to stand in the middle with the balloon) and then the balloon was released. Up it floated higher and higher and higher until it truly seemed to merge with the stars…
Then we carefully gathered up the mandala which was placed on silk and carried it outside as if it was your very body, Mirjam. We walked the small distance to the river next to your beloved Baha’i Centre and released it to the river. …and by the light of our torch, a baby eel was seen in the water where we released the mandala…
What a beautiful and simple ceremony it was.
You are now resting as the peace, profound love and joy you truly are, Mirjam. Namaste 🙏🏻💗🙏🏻

Birte Flatt I m touched in many ways . Namaste

Cynthia Shakti So beautiful….the tears steam as i read this post…..

Mareile Stoppel 🌈Thank you to the Bahai community for hosting this beautiful event. I am so thankful to have had the opportunity to share and connect with Mirjam and her friends 🌈

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Thank you so much, Jax, for posting this. I was there in spirit, as was Mirjam (I guess).

Eileen Khouw Sounds like such a wonderful gathering. Thanks so much for coming together and honoring Mirjam

Lynda Kitchingham Sounds very beautiful and a very fitting farewell for beautiful Mirjam.

The last photo of Mirjam and myself, 31 March 2017.

Anja Striepke 🙂 [26 August]

Christina Burki So beautiful and I only can imagine how sad for you Rudolf and know she is still with you..only invisible for you.

Monica Page Beautiful ❤

Aditya Malik Much love Rudolf! 💜💜❤

Annekatrien Verbraak She looked so good! You both do

Kaye Ryan This is what real love looks like xo

Chantal Healy You are very much in our thoughts… You both look so radiant and one… forever… With much much love dearest Rudolf xx

Jane Forsyth Beautiful

Diane Boyd Golden and beautiful!

Margarete Koenning welch ein schoenes Bild von such beiden

Karen Humpage So much love ❤ ❤ ❤

Gael Thompson Aw beautiful such light and love emanating from you both , Remember Rudolf that is not gone .

Ann-Maree Rundle love

Tamika Gail Dwight-Scott Beautiful photo

Heidi Turner ❤ beautiful beautiful people x x

Robyn Townsend 🙏🏽beautiful ❤

Eileen Khouw Awwww so love this moment xxxxx

Tanya Field Such extraordinary love between you both…so touching. 👃💖

Monique Dobrzelak beautiful souls

Jen Raquel Newick Your love is radiant and defies time 🌹🌹🌹

Jane Catherine Severn thankyou Rudolf – precious to have this beautiful memento of you both and the extraordinary love you radiated together.

Flavia Coleman Love never dies

Eden Fazel [27 August]

Jill Baxter Beautiful xx

Jennifer Teague I am so sorry Rudolf. Thank you for sharing the photo, it is lovely.

Beatriz Rodriguez Servetto 💖

Katie Ayo Beautiful xxx

Jazelle Alderdice May you always have her in your heart like this. This is how I remember you both xx

Mareile Stoppel So beautiful

Warren Parkinson Love is eternal.

Steve Strang What a Beautiful photo Rudolf. Sending love and holding you in my heart brother💙

Arielle Atman Beautiful

Janice Joyce So lovely
Tracy Adams beautiful ones ❤

Jax Storey Always so loving together dear Rudolf 🙏🏻💗🙏🏻

Tess Ward Beautiful photo Rudolf. Very poignant.

Clive Holgate Beutiful

Martine Bouillir Ohhhh… ❤

Lynda Kitchingham Fabulous photo of you both. A treasure! xxx

Tiamara Williams what an absolutely beautiful picture

Robin Woodsford nice one Rudolf….

Marlene Harrison Love you both…beautiful photo

Linda Kroening Wow so beautiful

Augusta Andrew Lovely photo of you xoxox

Franziska Friese

August 28 at 8:40am · Christchurch · 

A number of friends passed over in the last 2 months …Death …what is it .. how does it feel…where does it take us….how do we honour and love it like we do life ?
This is with thanks to those who have led the way so beautifully, embracing the full compass of emotions and yet still with a focus on Joy. Thank you 
Rudolf for sharing it .

Natasha Gall Thanks for that, yes I have lost some friends too

Elisa Lanau When my beautiful grandmother died she came to say goodbye to me in a dream. I picked up her lifeless body from the sea, and then saw her spirit soul body by the sea shore. Tnx for posting Franziska…. thoughts with Rudolf.

Ann Way Beautiful Franziska! Here is my favorite poem in response:

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

by Mary Elizabeth Frye

Franziska Friese THANK YOU 🙂

Anna Hakansson ❤❤❤

Esther Chambers No words….thanks for sharing this.

Michaela Balzarova Beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

Cecelia O’Brien Both lovely

Shelley Hines Blessings♡♡♡

Karoline Stevens Wow! What a beautiful poem, Franziska! 🙏


By Bishop Brent 1862-1929
(Bishop of the Philippines)

I am standing on the sea shore,
A ship at my side spreads her white
sails to the morning breeze and
starts for the blue ocean,
She is an object of beauty
and I stand and watch her
until at last she fades
on the horizon,

Then someone at my side says
“There, she has gone”
Gone where?
Gone from my sight – that is all,

She is just as large in the mast,
hull and spars as she was
when she left my side …
the diminished size and total loss
of sight is in me and not in her,
And just at that moment when
someone by my side says
“She’s gone”,
others take up the glad shout –

There she comes.”

Annekatrien Verbraak Can’t sleep, Rudolf?

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Not very well. Miss my beloved.

Yasmeen Clark Beautiful beautiful words. Thinking of you and sending hugs ❤

Jane Forsyth Thank you for sharing. Hard to comprehend.

Jax Storey So very beautiful Rudolf…both the words and the pictures. Thank you for sharing this with us. Sending you big love and comforting cuddles 💗🤗🌸

Tess Ward Beautiful words Rudolf. I know this poem and how true the words are.

Lynda Kitchingham Sending loving thoughts to you Rudolf.

Alison Scott brilliant




This is one of the last pictures of my beloved Mirjam. It was taken near Cathedral Cove at the end of March by Cynthia Shakti.

Katie Ayo What a beautiful woman she is Rudolph ❤ [28 August]

RaeMarie Evans Wow beautiful memories Rudolf xo

Janice Joyce Just beautiful ❤

Ina Angova Stunning!

Jill Baxter Aw

Cynthia Shakti Thanks Rudolf for posting this, I have such fond memories of the week I spent with Mirjam Busch and you …..I’m missing her so very much.

Heidi Turner beautiful shining light 🌟💖

Frauke John Beautiful

Warren Parkinson Lovely shot. Hard to believe that she left us so quickly.

Anita Lopp · Friends with Cynthia Shakti and 19 others

simply beautiful

Liz Faid So much life and joy in her – her photos are so beautiful ❤

Tiamara Williams beautiful

Suraya Langston gorgeous, she is in our hearts always.

Flavia Coleman Absolutely gorgeous

Lesley Alyson Campbell Such a beautiful photo ! [29 August]

Jax Storey isn’t it true, the Light always shines from Mirjam… ❤


Jillie Toogood: There are few people in my life who have truly inspired me, supported me to be all I can be, and whom I salute as being a friend, mentor and lifesaver. Mirjam made the world a better, brighter, safer place for many of us and I am very saddened to see her go. May you enjoy the next part of your journey Mirjam. With much love and gratitude to you xx


Dearest Rudolf, I think about you every day and darling Mirjam. There isn’t anything that I can say that can help. I just want you to know how much I have appreciated having both of you in my life. Mirjam shared with me on several occasions how much you meant to her and how patient you were while she came to the realisation that she loved you :o).

Whilst I cannot fully know your pain, I have cried many tears as I realise how much safer the world seemed with her in it. I have attached this video which although it was for Louise Hay, Nick suggested we could use it for any person who has passed. I found it calmed me and allowed me to connect to Mirjam. Please just delete if it is not of interest.

Sending you my heartfelt love Rudolf.

Whilst I cannot fully know your pain, I have cried many tears as I realise how much safer the world seemed with her in it. I have attached this video which although it was for Louise Hay, Nick suggested we could use it for any person who has passed. I found it calmed me and allowed me to connect to Mirjam. Please just delete if it is not of interest.

Sending you my heartfelt love Rudolf.

Astrid Melchers: Dear Rudolf, I’m just that little bit too far away but will be there in spirit. I’m thinking of my time at your place often. It’s a special place but as with most experiences in life, it’s the people that make for a special time. I enjoyed your company so much, and our conversations. It was bed, breakfast and healing that I got from you, and it was the best holiday I’d ever had. Mirjam was a wonderful person, a gem of a woman, and you two were wonderful together. I wish you strength to see a path forward for yourself. You rebuilt your life once before, now you have to do it again in some way. I’m sure she’s watching over you and is with you.

[Wednesday 23 August 2017]

Jenny May: Yesterday evening at 5.30 pm I went outside to go to dinner (still at The Haven) and I smelt frangipani overwhelmingly. I thought that it was the flowers out side but Chris and dave couldn’t smell it at all. The strong perfume stayed with me even back in my room as I went to sleep. I’m thinking that Mirjam was visiting – now that she if free of her body perhaps she wanted to visit the haven.

Hi Rudi, I have copied and shared with you this message to me from Monica she sent to me in response to the story above that I sent to you. I hope you are finding some solace and peace. We fly from qui nhon to Hanoi today.

“How beautiful Jenny
We too, and the animals have felt her presence particularly during the evening & night.
Now that she is free of her body she can visit anyone at anytime….how beautiful. Yes it is good for Rudi to be reminded of the subtle messages from her…to look for her soul will help eleviate the missingness of what was her physical state of being….she is still with him and always will be…even moreso in her soul state, and as he attunes himself to this vibration of her being he will enjoy a new level of relating with Mirjam. xo.” (Monica Page)

Kerrie Gaelen




Rudolf Jarosewitsch

August 25 at 10:16pm · 

I am saddened to hear of Mirjiam’s passing, such a wonderful, gentle soul and so full of life and I’m sorry not to be able to join the celebration of her life but please know I will be thinking of you. I can’t image how difficult the days are for you at the moment losing your life partner and soul mate. I remember how you both welcomed and embraced me to your home and the workshop I attended presented by you both. Allowing friends to hold and support you at this time and for the future is an important part of this journey. xx

Olly Ohlson Our thoughts and love are with you Rudolph. Nga mihi.

[Sunday 27/8/2017]

Hello Rudolph – and big love to you. I wanted to send you a personal message. You have been so courageous and open hearted sharing your journey and grief as Mirjam was exiting this world. It has been deeply moving for me. Mirjam lives on in the lives and hearts of the many of us who had the pleasure and insightful-ness of her counsel. She continues to be a beautiful, wise and gentle presence in my heart, as I know she is for others. I still remember so clearly when she challenged me with the question “Do your children have the right to struggle?”. It made so much impact on me that I have quoted her many times to others struggling with their children’s struggles. I imagine what it would feel like to lose my great love and every part of my being just aches and feels distraught. I can only imagine the loss you are feeling now you are faced with the reality of losing your soulmate and great love. All of this must surely be one of the greatest challenges we face – the pain of losing someone after loving them completely. You are a brave and beautiful soul, Rudolph. I am sure you will have a period of time feeling somewhat adrift as you embark on this next phase of your life. Where ever it takes you next, I wish you well – and very much love. Suzy XX

Dear Rudolf

Today I heard the very sad news that Mirjam has recently died. What a beautiful woman. You must be missing her so much Rudolf. I know that she contributed to the happiness of my family by her loving kindness to Simeon and Michaela when they stayed at your healing haven last year.  I also remember Mirjam from gestalt workshops and a couples counselling course that you both took.  She stayed in my memory as a gentle and strong woman who brought a sense of warmth and goodness into the room with her. 

Blessings and love to you and thank you for being part of a great partnership of devotion to each other that could inspire others.

Kindest regards,  Jackie  [Scott, 29 August]



Beloved Mirjam has peacefully passed into the spiritual world, today at 11am.

Cynthia Shakti Sending you much love Rudolf, in your grief, loss and pain on so many levels. ❤❤❤

Eden Fazel Lots of love for you both all the way from Canary Islands

Karen Humpage Dear RudolfMark and I are so saddened at the loss of Mirjam ♥ Please know we are holding you close in our hearts and sending you love, strength and healing spirits ♥ Fly free dear Mirjam. Go in love and peace ♥

Leona Wolpert Thinking of you both. So sorry for your loss of your beautiful partner. ❤

Christina Fletcher Rip beautiful Mirjam. Sending you love at this time Rudolf Jarosewitsch ❤️

Jill Baxter Travel well Mirjam. You always brought lightness and joy. I’ll never forget that flick of your skirt and giggles at Convergence. Much love and gratitude. At peace now and always. 😚

Eleanor Pinkerton Thinking of you as you experience the grief and pain of losing your bful partner.

Maree Stachel-Williamson Oh, we’re so sorry to hear this Rudolf – we only met you two once on the NMIT counselling course but you both made a big impression on us. Sending our love 

Rudolf Boelee Much strength Rudolf Jarosewitsch!

John Herrett Lots of love to you Rudolf, prayers and love..

Alison Cannell Travel well Miriam and sending much love to you Rudolf❤️🙏xxx

Yasmeen Clark Sending love to you Rudolf. May Mirjam feel enveloped in love as she makes her transition home 

Daniela Goltermann I am so sorry to hear that.
She brought light and love wherever she went. I am very grateful to have met her.
I am thinking of you 
Rudolf Jarosewitsch.
With all my love…. 😢❤️

Elizabeth McCardell My heart aches with you, my friend.

Jennifer May Peacefull journey to lovely Mirjam. And peace, love and healing to you Rudolf. Please pass on Ana and Kira the same. ❤️

Mark Humpage Kia Kaha, so much love, so much sadness

Katie Nixon Today I stood and watched the totality of the moon eclipsing the sun. It was beautiful and i can easily equate Mirjam’s beauty with this event. While I only spent a short time with her, her powerful energy (much like the eclipse) has always stayed in my memory. May her spirit find peace and your heart find solace in her memory

Stephen LeFebvre So sorry to hear Rudolf, our love and prayers are with you both. Know that we will be with everyone we have ever loved forever ………

Brenda Miller Love and prayers out to you 

Emma Darragh I am so sad for the world. Mirjam made it a better, kinder, place. Sending you thoughts and prayers Rudolf. What a privilege it was to see you two together in the beautiful space you both created.

Eden Fazel Neither you, nor the sadness in your face, nor the people of this town will live forever!
I swear in the name of the fleeting sad bubble of this beautiful river passing you by, and I swear in the name of those short happy moments that we experienced together!
That today’s sadness will also pass, in a way that only its memory will last!
All moments of your life come to you naked! Do not ever dress them in costumes made of sadness!

Lucy Cabot-Saunders Jeff and I are gutted to hear of your loss at Mirjam’s passing. Your life will never be the same without such a beautiful Soul by your side. She was very supportive of me earlier on in my (Lucy ‘s) journey which I am very grateful for. We are sitting here writing this to you and send you a reminder email you much love as you come to terms with your loss. We will be thinking of you over the next few very difficult days and coming weeks as you adjust to a different life. Much love Lucy and Jeff xo xo

Lucy Cabot-Saunders Please forgive my unhelpful ‘intuitive’ apple device which highjacked our words. I’m sure that it didn’t highjack the sentiments we were wanting to convey.. Much love from us both, Lucy xo

Linda Kavelin-Popov O Rudolf my heart goes out to you. You have been so close for so long.

Robyn Townsend Love and prayers

Anwar Jahan Please accept our heartfelt condolences!

Estelle Nguyễn noo… I feel so bad and sad to hear this new. I’m so sorry for your loss. My English is not good enough to describe my feelings and what I want to said to you but Mirjam will always in my heart! Prayers and love… ! Rest in peace Mirjam… The memories will remain forever in my heart! 😢

Osnat Ella May she rest in peace. She was very loved and that love will never be lost. I had the honour of filming your wedding. Sure you are full with long lasting memories of her beautiful being and all the help you gave other people. Sending you much love.

Jax Storey Oh Rudolf, I send you so much love and cradle you within my heart  Your Goddess flies Free now…
All my love to you dear one 

Dinah Buchanan Our hearts go out to you Rudolf – we’ll be in touch – we’d like to support you if we can. I feel so, so sad and bereft. MIrjam was such a joyful, loving light and I will always think of her with much love. Dinah & Barry xx

Kaya Singer Rudolf- my deep love to you and prayer to Mirjam. I suspect she is fine and its you who needs love right now. Let me know anything I can do for you.

Brent Skinnon So sorry to hear this Rudolph.

Erica Ruiter Happy to hear Miriam is at peace. Sad to lose such a lovely woman. Glad to have met her and fond memories of her warmth live on. Om shanti
Beth Lew Our hearts are saddened for your loss Rudolph and we are saying prayers for Miriam’s progress in the next world -the world of light and joy.

Nickei Falconer Much love to you Rudolf 

Lisa Lane

Wolfgang Fassbinder Transitiontime. Travel safe dear Mirjam. Lots of love to you Rudolf. Hugs 

Jane Forsyth Words fail me sending much love Rudolf always a place here for you if you need . Love Jane and Eoin

Natasha Gall Go well Mirjam. I would have like more time with you, you were quite a mentor. I am sure your big smile is carrying you onwards in peace

Kaye Ryan Rudolf,
The love and healing that you & dear Miriam Blessed so many hearts with will continue to ripple on for years to come.
The dedication you both demonstrated in tending the garden of your relationship has been awe-inspiring to me.
The depth of the grief that you find yourself in right now is testimony to the rich beds, beauty & lush foliage of that garden. May the power of the Love you created and shared so generously help you through Life as it is now.
You have my heart today,

Lynn Timpany Much love. So sorry for your loss Rudolf.

Dennis Valentine Love & Hugs

Jazelle Alderdice Just read your post….so very very sad, Mirijam left too soon. Kia Kaha Rudolf, your grief is as deep as your love. My tears are falling up here on the mountain in the south island as I tune into your unfathomable loss. Gutted she didn’t make it to Thailand. Many prayers and tender holding of your shattered heart.

Hoàng Kim Trần I can not believe that’s true . Wake up in tears . Missing you forever

Franziska Friese LOVE and LIGHT blessings to her departing soul and love and hugs to you Rudolf …all pain ebbs and flows ….may there be some light somewhere sometime to light up the dark space of loss…xxx

Robin Woodsford my thoughts are with you rudolf and all family at this time…. Mirjam was in my mind all morning today…may she be at peace and may we all grieve well…

Melissa Strang So sorry. She was a beautiful lady in every sense of the word xx

Mike Rafferty Mike Rafferty ….. dear Rudolf, stand strong in your grace brother. Hold that massive part of your heart that is Mirjam. Treasure this, find comfort in this.Care for yourself, go gently.with love. Mike

Nikki Berry I’m so so sorry Rudolf, all my love, Nikki

Jacqui Cotter Oh that’s so so sad Rudolf, I’m so sorry for your loss. ❤️

Rebeccah Hibbert So much love, Rudolf. Prayers for her spiritual journey and for you 

Pascale Hennessey She is at peace. I love you Mirjam, and will pray for the progress of your soul to the Abhá Kingdom. Yá-Bahá’ul-Abhá xxx

Warren Parkinson A very sad time for us all Rudolf but especially for you and her family. She was obviously much too good for this world. Now she can be one of God’s favored angels. Much love and prayers.

Azeen Tashakkor We’re so sorry to hear this Rudolf. May her soul progress in the Abha Kingdom forevermore. Prayers for her and for you. May Baha’u’llah gives you strength and patience.

Lynda Kitchingham Dear Rudolf. I am so sad for you that you have had to part from Mirjam. My love and tenderest thoughts will be with you as you try and come to terms with your devastating loss.Lynda

Gabriele Busmann Das ist so traurig- ich denke an Dich und bete für sie und dich!

Diana Moir I am so moved by this photo of beautiful Mirjam, Rudolf. Much love to you

Anja Striepke I am with the word “peaceful” XxX A candle is burning for her 

Cheri Anderson So very sorry to hear. Sending you prayers and light and lots of love. 

Tom Albrecht Mein Beileid Dir alter Freund Rudolf!

Tamika Gail Dwight-Scott Feeling for you with the death of such a beautiful soul and your soul mate. Sending love to you. Tam and Stu

Stan van Uden I’m so sad to hear your news Rudolf, sending you so much love.

Christopher Musgrave So much love around you Rudolf, and now Mirjam is all around us too… thank you for all that you gave me, together, and for being such wonderful role-models. Wishing you peace as you grieve and recover  and may you feel all our love surrounding you at this difficult time xx

Kathy L Gilbert Offering prayers for her journey. Aid and Assistance prayers for you dear Rudolf. I Arohanui 

Stan van Uden I’m so sorry to hear your news Rudolf, Sending you much love, Stan.

Benjamin Wolpert Dear Rudolf, I am thinking of you and Mirjam and sending you warm wishes on this journey.

Chantal Healy Dearest Rudolf Greg and I are very sorry to hear the news today… Cherish all the wonderful moments you have had together, they are precious memories.. We are thinking of you and if you need anything please do not hesitate. We are very much holding you in our prayers and your beloved Mirjam. With love from both of us.

Mari Trini Mitre Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
All such things is where her essence dwells.  Farewell beloved friend 

Matthias Öri

Sophie Owston Roberts I’m so sad rudolf for your loss. I feel blessed and fortunate to have had Mirjam share with me and so many of us her healing love and strength.😢❤️

Vahid Qualls Dear Rudolf. I am really sorry to hear of your loss. Please be assured of our love, thoughts and prayers.

Christina Burki My deep condolences to you Rudolf and I am sure Mirjam is now with you only invisible for you.I am sad with you and send my warm thoughts to you.

Tracy Adams Vale Mirjam, dear and most beautiful human being. Dear Rudolf, holding you in my heart, all my love 

Mareile Stoppel Dear Rudolf
So sad and unbelievable, feeling Mirjam strongly here in Purau as we have a candle lit for her for the last days. Many rainbows surrounded us lately like a joyful greeting from afar, yet so close to heart. Be embraced dear man and held in love
Mareile and Nirdosh

Kerrylea’nMichael Sampson Travel well Mirjam. Much love to you Rudolf x

Martin van Lubeck Lieve Rudolf,
My thoughts are with you, my dear friend.
Much love,

Annekatrien Verbraak I am so sad, for her, for you, for her daughter and family, friends and for myself. She had been such a huge part of my professional life, she knew so much about me, a part of me is going as well. Thinking of you, Rudolf, of life for you without that eternal smiling beauty….

Helen Scott Dear Rudolph We are so very sorry to hear your sad news about Mirjam. We send all our love. Thinking of you and Miriam.Arohanui. Helen and Manfred

Tiamara Williams Dear Rudolf, Sending so much love. I feel such sorrow. Mirjam was a true angel in my life….truly an angel. I have always felt that the universe gifted me with her presence as part of my life journey. I was given hard tasks, but gifted an angel to light my path and hold my hand. She was with me as a pillar of light for years and years and held space for me while I learnt some of the core and most difficult lessons this life has brought to me. She gave me love when I felt unlovable and never judged me. She acknowledged me and my greatness and thankfully we were able to share our deep appreciation for one another and gratitude for knowing one another. My love flows to you and to her in her passing. xxxxx Annekatrien Verbraak My condolences to you too, Tiamara. Beautiful words

Flavia Coleman I am saddened beyond words. May she rest in peace

Thomas Head My thoughts and love are with you at this painful time. so many mixed emotions to process and come to terms with. I send you both blessings, the earth bound and the homeward bound.

Janice Joyce My deepest condolences Rudolf, I can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling losing your beautiful Miriam, peace and love to you ❤️

Heidi Turner Beautiful Mirjam…so blessed to have spent time in your joyful loving gentle presence and to witness your love for each other.. deepest love for you Rudolf and family ❤

Danielle Kojic Such sad sad news. What a wonderful woman and together you were one of the most loving and inspirational couples I have had the pleasure of meeting. Much love to you Rudolf.

Rose Diamond Aah, Rudolf, sending much love to you in your grieving.

Peter Archer Dear Rudolf, I am so sorry to hear this sad sad news. I will be in touch, and if there is anything that I can do, you only have to ask. ♥️

Lynn Stevenson Rudolf, my hear felt condolences. Thinking of you.

Marlene Harrison You have our love and prayers dear friends. Marlene & Rex

Penny Brenton So sad for you Rudolph, I can only imagine your pain 🙏🏻

Steve Strang Rudolf so so sorry to hear my brother

Peter Archer Dear Rudolf, I am shocked at this sad sad news, and will be in touch shortly. You know that if there is anything I can do for you, you only have to ask.

Martin Lewis So sorry Rudolf Jarosewitsch

Tess Ward Sending love to you Rudolf. Mirjam was a beautiful soul and this must be a great loss to you. How synchronistic that she made the transition into the Light on the day of the total eclipse of the sun. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Clive Holgate Hi Rudolph thoughts of love ànd gentleness to you

Rebecca Lee Sending you much love Rudolf in your time of grieving. Mirjam’s beautiful Spirit will be soaring high no doubt – may you trust that she will never be too far away from you though xxx

Tanya Field Sending you my deepest love & prayers Rudolf. 💜👃

Herbie Mues Dear Rudolf
I’m so sorry to receive your news. I send you my heartful compassion and condolences. We will always remember Mirjams vitality, positivity und lebensbejahende Einstellung. So hard to believe! Send you lots of love Herbie and Maria

Carolyn Faye Fraser So sorry to hear this sad news Rudolf…sincere condolences.. Please feel free to ring anytime…if you so wish…I know you are surrounded by much loving support..and here finally is the quotation from Thich Nhat Hanh I promised some days ago:

Grace Dalley Oh Rudolf, I’m so sorry. I know your relationship was very powerful. Sending much love.  

Vinay Gunther Sending you love. Very very sad.

Carolyn Faye Fraser “The Art of Happiness is also the Art of Suffering Well. When we learn to acknowledge, embrace, and understand our suffering, we suffer much less :” (I will try to find the rest of this passage …it is very inspiring…Much love, Arohanui…Faye..and Family..

Holisticpulsingrocks Corinne Murray Sending love to you, kira and miriams sister thru your loss. Miriam was such a blessing in our lives and I understand that huge hole such a loved one leaves behind. At least we were blessed to have her in our lives for some time. May her gifts help you journey thru the grief of the loss of her physical presence. May her memory n spirit always be a joy to you all 🤔 xox

Carolyn Faye Fraser Sad to hear your news just now Rudolf. Sincere condolences and much love….I know you are surrouned by much loving suport up there …please feel free to ring anytime should you so wish. Here is a quote from Thich Nhat Hanh I promised…”The art of happiness is also the art of suffering well, When we learn to acknowledge, embrace, and understand our suffering, we suffer much less ” …I will try to find the rest of the text. ..i very inspiring… Arohanui, Peace…Faye and Family.

Alison Scott Loving you Rudolf. So sorry to hear this news. Much love to you Rudolf.

Monique Dobrzelak so sad to hear Rudolf. I am so sorry for your loss. I’ll chant A mi Tou Fo for her 💕

Jayashrii McFadgen Journey well beautiful

Matías Corbalán Big Big hug Rudolf! !

Kris Ericksen Big, big hugs to you ❤

Kovido Maddick Dear Rudolf, It is hard to believe. You and Mirjam are still in our hearts . Her vitality and compassion continue to emit from the beautiful picture you posted of her. Our love to you at this time Suraya and Kovido

Julia Guthrey Dear Rudolf,
Words cannot convey what a beautiful person Mirjam was. I’m so sad to know of her passing from this existence. She lives eternally in our hearts, her bright loving smile and strength will always remain as an inspiration to me. Go gentle. Warmest love,

Leslie Gold (Over the many oceans) I feel you and Mirjam have been my friends for many years…I am in disbelief that such a strong and loving light has travelled over to another realm. My heart and gentle embraces are with you Dear Rudi 🌟❤️🙏

Jennifer Teague I carry you both in my heart.

Rebecca Leaker She is/was such a unique warm hearted loveable soul. One of those people you meet and instantly feel a connection too and realise what a gem she is with her spirit sparkling in her eyes. So sorry your time together has been cut short Rudolf Jarosewitsch, what a beautiful woman to have shared your life with. Sending you lots of love and hugs and supportive space to allow whatever you need to be at this time xxxxx

Hilary Parker My love & thoughts to you at this sad time …

Claire Jobst Mein aufrichtiges Beileid Rudolf.

Yvette Audain More love and hugs! Still thinking of you all

Fiona Illingworth Such a sad time Rudolph, my thoughts are with you, and with Mirjam in her transition home. Arohanui 

Ian Gall A sad day to loose such a beautiful light …my love and goodness to you

Carrie Eames Thinking of you and Mirjam. Of the time when you guys were here, how she loved the beach and talking talking talking and how she had such a beautiful open spirit and heart. I’m so sorry for your loss. Also thinking of Mirjams daughter. ❤️

Grief struck!

Rudolf Jarosewitsch Beautiful Mirjam, the love of my life

Kaya Singer What a beautiful photo and such a wonderful life you two have had.

Jazelle Alderdice Yes she does look beautiful Rudolf! How blessed to have found each other all those years ago. Gently sitting with you, heart soft…

Katz Cowley Oh Rudolf she is so Beautiful inside and out

Cant imagine how your Heart must be feeling.
Like a cavernous void of grief and yet you will always be connected.

Erica Ruiter So beautiful

Aditya Malik lots of love, rudolf…so sorry! xxxxx

Mareile Stoppel What a beautiful gorgeous woman! Sending you so much love

Fina Bakani Fisher Awww Soo sorry for your loss…loving thoughts coming your way from all of us here at home… ♡♡♡

I have made death a messenger of joy to thee. Wherefore dost thou grieve? I made the light to shed on thee its splendor. Why dost thou veil thyself therefrom?


Ian Jones i do know why my friend, I do know

Jax Storey Dearest Rudolf, we’re here with you. I send you so much love! 🙏🏻💗

John Mander Tears and love

Lorina Harding I am so sorry for your loss, Rudolf. She was such a beautiful Soul.

Suzanne Tapper A beautiful woman inside and out. Big love to you Rudolph XXX

Lisa Tui Sending you lots of love ❤️

Anja Striepke Ich denke viel an euch und umarme euch inniglich ❤ ❤ ❤

RaeMarie Evans A very special soul, brought much happiness and wisdom to everyone xoo Hugs to you

Richard Bolstad Much love Rudolf.

Amrita Stiles I share your grief Rudolf. We are all one. We always have been and we always will be. All ways.💓

Kate Naitoro Thinking of you Rudolf, and praying. Much love.

Nickei Falconer Much love to you Rudolf and to your families ❤ xx

Violette Edwards Medina Sending our love and prayers ❤️

Chris Kavelin What heartbreak for you! It’s so hard to believe. I can see both your faces so clearly as if we last met yesterday. She was infused with kindness, compassion and encouragement. I remember her words very clearly because she spoke from a place of justice and vision. I’m so sorry for your loss Rudolf Jarosewitsch she was vividly alive, it’s so hard to believe.

Pascale Hennessey Sending love and prayers dear Rudolf xxx

Donald Pettitt 😥 and ♥️. Such a beautiful person. My heart goes out to you Rudolf.

Fiona Illingworth So sad….love from Seba and I ❤

John Dainty Love Rudolf

Katie Ayo With much love xxx

Babak Bahador In our thoughts and prayers.

Christina Fletcher Sending you much love and support at this time. ❤️

Karen Humpage Mark and I are holding you close in our hearts Rudolf. Sending you love, strength and healing spirits ♥ Beautiful Mirjam, fly free with love ♥

Zuleika Bowman I’m so sorry Rudolf xxxx

Liz Faid Mirjam was like an angel in this world. So gracious and light filled. Sending you love Rudolf and prayers for you both ❤

Wolfgang Fassbinder So sorry to hear Rudolf. My heart goes out to you. I wish you strength and love in this time of transition. Hugs 

Lucy Cabot-Saunders She is Very Beautiful Rudolf……am sending you both lots of love… are in my prayers and thoughts xo xo

Philip Jopson So sorry to hear this news Rudolf, we are thinking of you, Deborah and Phil x

Arielle Atman Sending so much love to you now dear Rudolf.

Olly Ohlson Our love and thoughts surround you Rudolf Jarosewitsch

Seba Illingworth My deepest Love to you brother

Peter Jackson Such a Lovely photo of a Lovely Person. Rudolf, Please accept our Heartfelt Sympathy and Condolences. I’m sure that she will be well received into The Heavenly Concourse. Much Love from Peter, Farideh & Nura

Nancy Rishworth Love and Prayers to you Rudolf

Llew Summers Very sorry to hear this Love

Pooneh Slamdien Sending you love and Prayers, Rudolf ❤️❤️

Dix Ozier Beautiful Mirjam. Thank you for all the wonderful love and inspiration

Roger Harwood So sad!
Kia kaha brother….o

Dix Ozier Celebrating now her amazing journey and your everlasting connection in each breath

Harold Kho Our deepest condolences.

Anwar Jahan So sorry to hear that your dear wife has winged her flight to the Realms beyond.
May God give you the strength to bear this physical loss

Astrid Melchers I’m so sorry Rudolf. She was such a beautiful person, so wonderful to talk to, and both of you made me feel so welcome in your home. I’ve been cherishing that memory and will continue to do so. Sending you love and strength.

Warren Parkinson In the arms of the angels.

Cheri Anderson So very beautiful, Rudolf. Sending a tender hug. 

Mari Trini Mitre Dearest Rudolf, sending comforting love and blessings for your kind kind heart. 

Urja Refalo So sorry to hear this sad news. My deepest condolences

Bele Malik Very sorry to hear, Rudolf. May you find some light in dark empty times 😦

Tess Ward Sending love to you Rudolf. Such a time of grief and loss for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Mirjam’s family.

Alison Scott So sad

Fariba Riazati Oh dear Rudolf and the family. My heart dropped when i saw the message on facebook. Words are inadequate to express my condolence but we get comforted by the precious Words of God that she has abandoned this mortal life nad has winged her flight and soaring the Kingdom above. You all will be in my prayers.

Ly Nguyenduong I’m so sorry to hear this. 😟.

Janice Cantieri So sorry for your loss Rudolf!!! Hugs from america

Caroline Moosavi Dear Rudolf, I have no words to express how I feel after reading this news, I wish I could take part of your pain, I love you both very much and I know that she is watching us from the Abha Kingdom, assisting us in our endeavors to help build this spiritual civilization, I can feel her close to me, please be patient because God will help you and He is accompanying you at all times, we all are…much love dear brother.

Jen Raquel Newick Deepest love to you Rudof. Your beautiful Mirjam is at your side and always will be in our hearts. Condolences dear friend.

Evelyn Strecker I feel you Rudolf… warm hugs ❤

Kevin Mezzone Feeling for you mate, knowing the two of you for 1 weekend, the love you both shared was magical

Steffen Lindner lieber Rudolf, es tut mir so unendlich leid. Wo immer Miriam ist nun, sie wird es gut haben, weil Sie eine so wunderbare und einfühlsame Person war. Ich sende dir aus Deutschland mein zutiefst empfundenes Beileid. Ich bete für euch beide. Fühle meine zärtliche und anteilnehmende Umarmung, mein Freund!

Lynda Kitchingham Arms around you.

Jane Forsyth shared her photo

R.I.P Mirjam you brought so much joy laughter and love into others life’s .prayers for Rudolf and Family at this very sad time . Two amazing people.😢

Wilhelmina Flick: Oh Rudolph. I am so very sorry to hear that. you must be heartbroken. Thinking of you. Om mani pad me hung. Xxx

Vic Lai: Rudolf. My brother, my fiancee and I are very very sad to learn that Myriam has gone to the spiritual world. All our sympathy to you and your families. Stay strong! Life continues…

Ursula Kemper: Lieber Rudolf, die Nachricht hat mich sehr betroffen gemacht. Ich bin in Gedanken bei dir und wünsche dir von Herzen, dass du von dem Schmerz heilen kannst, auch durch die weiter fließende Verbindung zu Mirjam. Lass dich umarmen, Ursel